Saturday, November 17, 2012

mid of November.... going on December~

a year sure zoom by real fast....
faster than you can keep track of....
though sometimes getting thru the week or day can be slow~
dreadfully crawling slooooooow!
the daily work life routine just gets down on me....
packed schedule + unpredictable weather =
tired & sickly PX
 (feels awful to be sick continuously)
so looking forward to December...
hoping to get a good break during winter vacation....
gonna be a warm tropical Christmas....
"recharging" for the new year~ 

Friday, October 12, 2012

two ways~ or more??

words said or not.... 
they actually meant a lot~
said - things to be communicated.... feelings to be conveyed
not - it doesn't matter... or perhaps you don't have to know
being there or not....
while actions tells a lot~
there - presence appreciated....presence taken for granted
not - no one cares actually... you are not needed
near or far....
i believe in the feelings that comes within my heart
you know it yourself....
once there, always there.... 
believe it or not~

Thursday, August 2, 2012

August 2012

already going forward into August for 2012....
which is the last month where PX is in the twenties~ still 29++....
also the first month where PX steps into the thirties~ turned 30.... 
the BIG Three!!
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suddenly tried to recap my life journey today....
(cos someone commented that i stayed out of SG most of my life~)
so started to track back my "milestones"....
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Year 2002: 
started my first real job in GSK 
(which lasted for 3 years 8 months)
met great mentors and people who had so much life and work experiences....
i'm glad that i had the chance to "get into" GSK "easily"....
had the chance to learn, accept challenges and prove my capabilities.... 
wanna open up the horizon of opportunities for myself!!
Year 2006:
flew out of SG to Brisbane to pursue my Bachelor degree
(exactly 1 year)
8 months of hard work and studies....
12 months of memories with great friends....
learned how to adjust and adapt to a whole new environment....
living on my own.... with all the freedom i want....
my way~ my style~ my life~
starting to look forward to the opportunities that will open up....
thinking more about what i would like to do or work forward to....
Year 2007:
yet there's also the "burden" of being the only graduate in the family~
don't like the invisible stress.... 
 at the same time started not "getting used to" living in SG....
wanna get out and work overseas!!
(remembered UK or Japan was top on the list, in the end~) 
started to work as a research associate....
the furthest location ever in SG.... from Jurong East to Changi!
the shortest resume ever too.... 6 months!
but it's an important stepping stone for me towards a research work....
Year 2008:
(a contract for 18 months in exchange for a 2 years bond)
grabbed the opportunity to do research work finally....
on top of it, it was in US....
a place i never really thought of.... or wanted to go to....
amazingly life always brings you to places of unexpected~
AMRI Albany (STRAT trainee)
to be train as a research chemist....
really learned everything from scratch for research from US~
from zero to One.... ?!?
great mentor.... teammates.... projects....
awesome experience in Albany....
gained so much!!
friends, work experiences and life experiences....
got my driving license too!!!
Year 2009:
AMRI Singapore.... an actual research chemist~
back to SG to "serve" my bond....
different working culture and people....
totally dread it from the very first day/week....
the greatness of the time in US never fades....
wanted to go back to US after my bond....
but things got real bad in US.... unexpectedly?!? 
in the end, i did completed the bond for 21 months....
Year 2011:
away from SG again....
a total change in career!!!
something that was thought to be "impossible"....
it's really a very different field which i'm not trained in... at all!!
going with the "gut feeling"....
i purged into being a ALT....
Assistant Language Teacher in Japan.... 
teaching English to young kids in schools!!
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 looking at all that and made a count....
in my twenties
for 10 years, i was living in and out of 4 countries!!
though i'm actually out of SG for a total of 3++ years only....
it's still counting on now~
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so what will be like in my thirties.... ???
hope it will be as amazing and good as it gets...

Saturday, June 16, 2012

one year in Japan...

time flies~ 
this phrase gets used so much like it's being "abused"
especially when you suddenly realized so much things happening around 
revolving around you both knowingly and unknowingly
you might be aware at that very point of time
but never had them set into your mind...
all because of one word~ "BUSY" (the easiest and best excuse on earth!)
yet it's truly the fact that everyone is busy with their role in life~
getting into your life routine and it just starts rolling from there....
sad to say but it wouldn't really stop for anyone~
just like how the Earth wouldn't stop moving for anyone!!
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last June in 2011....
had my farewell dos again....
got my bags packed again....
booked myself on a flight again....
felt those mixed feelings once again....
waved goodbye again....
on my own once again~
 *a whole new journey in life*
started teaching in Japan....
another career i explored....
put myself out for "test" again....
overcoming yet another barrier....
adjusting to a new environment....
different language and culture....
somehow familiar yet strange....
now June in 2012....
one year onwards~
not sure what's for me to come....
all i know is....
to enjoy the journey i'm in now....
something that i had always dream about....
living my dream away from home.... 
will press on till it ends....
that's where i know i once lived my dream....
nothing is impossible
(maybe simple ones lah)

being alone~

"we're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone" - Orson Welles
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*we're born alone*
(true for most~)
  *we live alone*
(depends on each individual)
*we die alone* 
(you wouldn't want anyone to die with you~)
*true love*
*true friendship*
(how many actually have them? or either one?
having and being preciously cherished~)
*we're not alone*
(no one likes to be alone if given a choice~)
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saw that quote somewhere
then my tiny little pea brain wonders....
so one wouldn't be left alone?? 
for sure no one's bound to be alone??
so one would have love and friendship??
for sure both will come together in a set??
so it's always true for one and everyone??
for sure no one is left out by someone or anyone??
we only get to live once
there's only one chance to grab hold of your life
NOW or NEVER
Did you already got yours and you are not ALONE?? 

Thursday, May 24, 2012

those were the days~

school days~ being a student~
poor...carefree....ample time on hand....
one of the best time in life
"secondary school and polytechnic"
days where you make friends for life!!
days where you create memories and cherish them!!
days where everything seems repeating...
yet only live it once.... just ONCE!!
days where you hope you can grow up faster!!
where you ideally can be~  
independent....
decide what you want....
do what you want....
pursue what you wish....
enjoy your life....
as a grown up adult!!
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yet no one told you...
when you gonna face the harsh reality of life~
responsibilities....
"survival of the fittest"....
social pressure....
that you will actually wanna go back~
back to the carefree "kiddo" again....
missing those days 
where you think you have nothing
but all the time in the world!!
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~LIVE LOVE LAUGH~
so simple....
so hard to attain....
so far away....


what's for me actually??.....did I make it on the list at all??

lost....
don't know anymore....
what's good?? what's bad??
envious?? appreciation??
greedy?? 
fate?? serendipity??
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would i have any happiness in life??
any tiny share of it at all??
or i should just forget about having it??
something i'm not entitled to before....
at present nor in future....
hence nonexistent ever?? ha~ 
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indeed a wanderlust wondering in the big big world...