it's interesting how things changes....
how one adjust or adapt....
followed by everything else changes....
either gradually or rapidly....
with or without one knowing....
usually it's when one gets a moment,
to jump out of the reality....
that's the time~
you allow yourself to let down your guard,
review and judge yourself....
make yourself accountable to mistakes,
ignorance behaviours and comments....
telling yourself to be the better person
that you wanna be!
back to real life....
with those takings in mind,
taking baby steps...maybe ever small than that
you try~
good or bad?? hard to tell...
those who are constantly around you
might gradually be or already "used to" the current You,
how about those you care about yet not around all the time?
especially your family....those who are always taken for granted....
(maybe it's just me!)
but i realised that's how my family works~
no one will really praise each other
everyone seems to be using "reverse psychology"!!!
everyone cares but never says
for a good intention, there's a "wrong" reaction....
you will seldom heard them in words,
but you will feel it when you see the actions....
actions speaks louder than words~
so true in my family!
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a recent "discovery"....
some of my closest friends, even family members
(i realised after pondering on the issue)
i had a "time-void" gap....almost 4 years!
i missed out on their happenings....
they missed on mine too....
even with those calls and so-called updates online
everyone's "growing" everyday
with globalisation....
the pace gets even faster without knowing,
exposures to different environments too....
thinking and mindset becomes different,
experiences mold a person differently
transforming the same You to the new You....
yet some things will always retain in you!
how magical is this!!!
with this magic,
you will gain some, lose some too....
for me, i hate to lose anything i had before....
i treasure everything that's a part of my life journey,
good and bad, happy or sad
especially people....
those who had entered at any part of my life
i'm happy and truly enjoyed meeting them
whenever i remembered someone whom i had lost contact with
i felt a heartache deep down without fail....
especially those who could only be in your memories....
not that they passed on,
just don't know where can they can be found or in contact again?
so from now on....
keep friends...true friends is important~
with everyone leading their own lives in this hectic society
your friends and their partners (which might become your friend too)
together with their new family members!
*i love playing and looking at those little "devils"!*
start patching and keeping those puzzle pieces~
if not, i will have alot more missing parts in my life
than what i'm missing now....
